Posts Tagged ‘muscle relaxers’

and one pill makes you small…

27 October 2008

It’s been a while since I’ve been on muscle relaxers for more than a few hours.

Typically, I’ll take one before or during some spasms.  Most of the time I’ll just sort of pass out for a few hours and when I wake up I feel a lot better.  With this new development of intense pain in my back and neck, I’ve been on a daily regiment of cyclobenzaprine and this new (to me) NSAID called naproxen.  (Previously I’d been on lodine… and I was once on propoxyphene-n too…  They seem to always give me cyclobenzaprine now, since I had a really bad reaction to just a half dose of skelaxin.  )

Work has definitely been interesting.  It’s amazingly hard to focus, not just on work but anything.  I just go blank.  I’m tired and just slightly dizzy.  All to be expected with these pills, hence why I normally like to just stay home while I’m on them.

My little personal pharmacy has almost become an amusement to me, though still slightly embarassing.  It’s all pain killers and muscle relaxers, and even my vertigo medication.  I think most of the embarassment comes with the issues those pills were prescribed for, starting 6 years ago…  Unexplainable acute paralysis, tremors, spasms… I’m not as strong or as healthy or as physically capable as I’d like to be.  And doctors can’t and couldn’t find any explainations.  So I get more pills just to take care of the symptoms.  I definitely don’t have a habit or anything, but it would be easy to start one if I wanted.  My mom went had some extreme back problems once, and we got to compare our medications.  It’s nice to know I don’t need to worry about bringing my little bag-o-pills to her house for those “what-if” emergencies.

Sometimes I think that maybe bionics are the way to go…

damn my… poor choice for a saturday night…

26 October 2008

this is a complete waste of a saturday night.
a completely disappointment.

all I’ve done today is get an x-ray of my neck taken at the hospital (I’ve been in a lot of pain this past week, especially the last three days)…

But tonight is just a massive void.

It seems everyone has plans… I could have. Dan and Adam are going to/at a costume party. With my pain medication and muscle relaxers, I’m not supposed to consume alcohol — which I can go to a party and not drink, Dan certainly does. Last night at the Green Mill I didn’t drink either. I think it’s more of the number of unfamiliar people. I’d rather just spend tonight with my friends, enjoying each other’s company and conversation, eating cookies and ice cream.

I’m starting to regret not being in the mood for a party.