Posts Tagged ‘timmy’

post-thanks

1 December 2008

Hope everyone had a fun time with food and family (or whomever you spent your US Thanksgiving with).

My holiday was decent.  It was nice to get away for a bit; exchange Tuis & Kai for the Doodles and Tubs of Fun.  And of course, getting to see my family… the tradtion of me carving the turkey…  and actually getting to relax for a bit too.

My Thanksgiving comprised of a quick stop at my late stepmom’s mother’s family’s — an event I typically avoid.  But apparently I have a pretty decent younger cousin, Charlee, who I’ve never met before.. so I just talked with her for a while.  Then we headed off to my dad’s folks.  My newly married cousins, Matt & Kiley were there, as were Timmy and Lil G.  I really do hope that I can continue to get together with Timmy, Matt and Kiley for the holidays.  When Timmy, Matt and I were younger, we spent a lot of time at Grandma & Grandpa’s…  and so now that we’re all adults (or occasionally pretend to be), it’s been nice getting together every once in a while to catch up and continue joking around.

After our filling thanksgiving lunch… the real adults (minus Grandma) took naps… the children ran around… and us young adults sat and talked for a bit.  … Eventually, I had talked the whole family (minus M&K who had to leave) into getting hot wings for dinner… I placed a record order.  $0.60 boneless wing night.  I ordered: 18 plain, 20 sweet barbeque, 10 asian zing, 8 hot barbeque and 5 medium.  A total of 61 wings.  And now I can say the hottest I’ve had is hot bbq.  It was good, but still wow.  Asain zing is still my first pick probably.

Anyway… Friday, my mom and I braved the traffic and mobs of idiots.  I picked up some new ear buds (my panasonic ones had stopped working in the right bud, causing me to question my hearing for a while)… and I got the new Kanye cd too.  Came home and I rested — watched a lot of Deadliest Catch.

Saturday was supposed to be my IsoIsa’s* birthday party.  Unfortunately, he passed out yet again… so we spent a lot of saturday in the hospital, mainly the ER.  IsoIsa fine.  His blood levels were low… he’s having kidney problems (his kidney function is around 25% or so)… but despite all of this, he’s still doing well.  As with 3 of my 4 grandfathers, I know it’s really only a matter of years.  I’ll be lucky if they see me married (if I ever choose to do that)..  But.  He is doing well and is back home.

After lunch, Timmy and I went back to the mall… made some nice shirt purchases and.. and.. FINALLY found boots I liked… However, that saga is for later.  At the mall, Timmy and I ran into his roommate Carter… and then later into Timmy’s brother** Nick and his girlfriend.  We hung out with them for a while.. eventually Timmy dropped me off at mom’s…  where a few hours later I eventually got bored and decided to head off to Timmy’s house… I hung out there, watching him play Grid… got to hear more stories about how Timmy’s ex, the Razzle Rat, is barely watching their daughter (Lil G) and is still a little immature drama queen.  (Seriously, you think I might just be against her for leaving Timmy.. but nope, RR is seriously immature and all of her “friends” think so too.)

Enough of that though.
I got home safely.  I have boots.  And I got to spend some great time with the family.  Even made a deal with Hannah (the oldest of my younger sisters)… she gets to buy my 1GB blue iPod shuffle for $20 for her christmas gift… and well, this just means I get to go out and buy a new iPod for myself.  (more on that later as well).

*IsoIsa = Grandfather (my mom’s dad)
** Nick is Timmy’s brother-in-law, hence, Timmy’s brother, not necessarily mine… though the kid is great.

damn it feels good to be a gangster

26 November 2008

or: Things I Am Thankful For 2008

adorable.

1. Lil G
Most adorable niece ever.  Seriously.  She never ceases to amaze me, and is a pretty smart little girl.  I just want to spoil her, more so than she already is.  Plus, she gets bonus points for knowing all of the words to Rhianna’s “Umbrella” — as tired of the songs as you might be, it’s so worth hearing over and over again with this amazing 3 year old singing.

img_48282. My Momma
If you’ve ever wondered where my dorkiness comes from, yeah here’s it is.  All from mom.  She’s perfectly okay with it too.. which is awesome.  She feels the need to let me know whenever she sees a monkey, and is constantly sending me Get Fuzzy comics or lolcats.  And while some moms steal their children’s instruments because of the noise… my mom stole my electric guitar and my electric bass (which I stole from my brother) so she could play them.  Every Sunday she rocks out in her church’s praise band.. and yes, she does jump and play barefoot.  Pretty awesome for a grandma.

timmy3. Timmy!
Despite the typical older brother things (see: punching, headlocks, wrestling, cracked noses), my brother is really important to me.  I mean, yeah.  (see: the wench)  I still look up to him a lot.  And if I’m going to go shopping with anyone, Timmy is among my first choices.  I like his style, and he tends to find good things for me.  I don’t always agree with things he’s doing, or some of his choices… but I love my bubby.  And hopefully within a year’s time we’ll have similar tattoos (cherry blossoms).

family4. Dad, Cynthia & the girls
Actually.. I want to say, I am amazingly thankful for Cynthia.  She is a blessing to our family.  Other than Karen, my late stepmom, I can’t think of another woman to join our family and help raise my sisters.  Her humor works really well with dad’s — so that’s been great for him.  She’s well traveled, and sees the importance of a good education and higher education (meaning my sisters might be convinced to go to college even more so). She’s taken on a lot — never been married and now she’s got 4 girls at home, two adult children and a grandchild.  She’s pretty amazing in my eyes.  And as always, I’m thankful for the love and care that my dad gives me.  And I’m growing to appreciate my younger sisters more and more.

5. Family in general
My whole family is awesome — and I’m thankful for all of them… all of the grandparents (5 grandmas and 4 grandpas)… the aunts and uncles… all the cousins… I’ve got a pretty awesome and very supporting family and that’s been amazing.

6. My job
While I could do without the data entry and some of the tediousness.. I am indeed thankful for a full time job with benefits where not only am I paid well, but I’m appreciated.  I’ve got a boss who’s really understanding and actually is concerned about me and my goals outside of the facility.  Not many people are this lucky right out of school.  Plus, having a nice income with few bills.. well… my wardrobe, entertainment, and video game budget has definitely increased.  (I get to play with lasers and liquid nitrogen. bonus.)

7. The amazing group of people I call my friends
Seriously.  I feel pretty lucky.  I don’t even think I could name them all.  There have been a select few who have really been there for me and have seen me at my best and worse, and yet they still love me.  Two in particular I practically see as sisters now: Chrizzle and Mennogirl.  They’re pretty amazing.  And I’ve got my uber spectacular group of GC Kids whom I love and miss.  There’s my work friends (George whom I enjoy our evening walks to the train; and Dani and Meaghan who can only be described as wonderfully zany).  Topping everything off with some really amazing people who I’ve met recently — most of whom I’ve met thanks to Dan and Adam… The potluck group… The awesome folk of the reading band and the Mucca Pazza memebers I’ve been lucky enough to get to know… I’ve really got an amazing group of people in my life right now.  (Who else would put up with velociraptor attacks and nonstop dorky nerdom?)

8. The Kits.
Crazy as they may be… I love Tuija and Kaija.  They are just awesome little wonderpets.  Psycho little wonderpets sometimes… but awesome.  Two kittens are a bit much, but it wouldn’t feel right only having one of them.  Definitely a package deal.  And I’m appreciating how they’re morphing into cats and are enjoying a good cuddle.

9. Buffalo/Hot wings.
you taste so good.  there needs to be more of you in my life.

Grab life by the … (thoughts on crushes)

25 September 2008

Recently, Mennogirl shared about some of her frustrations with crushes

This has sort of been a topic amongst the group for a bit, and well, my gorgeous friend Chrissy and I discuss the male species quite often.  I will say, we don’t necessarily harp on the issue of singleness.  Generally it’s about being simultaneously excited, pessimistic, and confused because of our various interests in whom we’re attracted to at the time.

It’s been commented that I’m pretty ballsy when it comes to approaching men.  (I’d like to think that if I ever did find a woman I was ever attracted to enough to want to date, I’d do the same.*)  I’m not opposed to directly telling someone if I’m interested.  Granted, I don’t always do that.  And I’m going to attempt to not discuss my current situation and interest (but I can just tell you, I think he’s pretty awesome… and hot)…

My brother likes to sort of live by the motto “Go big or go home”, you only have one life… Basically just grow a pair and do it.  (This is becoming a very testes-fill entry… hmm..)  Don’t back down.  No regrets. … Yeah.  On most occasions, I feel that if I like a person, I should just be upfront.  Yet, I’m finding that if I’m vocal in my interest… well, it hasn’t worked all that well.

Generally, I wait until I feel decently confident that the person should have gotten the hint that I’m interested without me necessarily stating so.  My last boyfriend (Sean, 2003-2005), once admitted that I was pretty aggressive.  He got the hint that I was interested.  Before we were dating… I ran into his dorm room and threw a smallish squeaky albatross at him, then scampered out of the room giggling.  Ah youth.

Anyway.  Crushes.  Bah.  Mennogirl’s discussion between her Pink fluffy brain and the voice of doubt/reason pretty much captures it.  It’s hard not getting caught up in a crush.  Social networking platforms don’t help — I’m looking at you fb/stalkernet.  For added reference, see this adventure from Fledg.  I mean, no one really wants to be the obsessed stalker chick.

I think this is sort of the underlying push for my directness.  I know my imagination oh too well.  I don’t necessarily trust it to govern itself when it comes to my infatuations.  (Again, let me refer you to the above mentioned post from Fledg.)  So, rather than letting my mind create and live out this relationship that isn’t there, I’d rather just find out if the other person is even interested and then go from there.  And well, that’s led to rejection and a slight deterring of new friendships.  But I’d rather just find out, why wait?  Granted, again, it’s different with each person I’m interested in.  There are times when I wonder if I am doing this more for myself than for the hopes of gaining a relationship.  Weed out the ones that probably wouldn’t develop into anything — and for the ones that I probably am more truly interested in, I’m a bit more inclined to just let things happen… let them develop on their own… (Some of this also comes from my hopeless romantic nature in that I kind of like it when the other person expresses interest…)

But I just put myself out there, then move on when the interests isn’t reciprocated.  On occasion, this has led to awkwardness.  Times when the other person feels that I’m still interested in them, when honestly, I’ve forgotten about it and am just interested in friendship.

Really, nothings come much from this — talking about it, self-examining it.  I’m still fairly direct, even if not verbally, when it comes to my interests in another person… I’m still currently single, however currently pretty attracted to someone (according to a third party, I “fallen” for them), yet well, I’ve still got no clue whether this person might even be remotely interested in pursuing a relationship with me.  I don’t even think I want much right now, just someone to spend time with, someone I enjoy, am attracted to, enjoy kissing, and well, that things could be exclusive… It’s basically friends with benefits that’s monogamous.  I mean, I pretty much want whomever I’m in a relationship to be someone I’m close friends with that I happen to make out with… (So much for not discussing my current situation.)

Anyway.  Crushes will probably always been frustrating.  I’m not sure if much can be done to change that.  I can’t really offer much advice to Mennogirl.  Either she will finally and somewhat directly (it doesn’t have to be verbally) express her interest to this guy, he may wise up and do the same, or they’ll just continue like this with Mennogirl probably giving up out of frustration or a lack of interest.  Best of luck dear, I am rooting for you.

*I do consider myself to be of the heterosexual persuasion.  However, if I ever were to find some amazing woman that completely blew me away, I wouldn’t deny myself the opportunity to be with her.  I just tend to not to be attracted to women, more so, I have yet to discover myself being sexually attracted to a woman.  Anyway.  That’s that.